I hope everyone had a good Christmas because I sure did! It was my first time celebrating the festive season properly, not that I never did but growing up, a lot of Christmas was carolling with Church and staying home on the actual day watching the telly. I was so glad to have been able to have an authentic Christmas this year with some of my closest friends. From roasted turkey on a beautiful table set-up and drinking wine by the fireplace, singing along to some crazy tunes, I couldn't have asked for a better past 2 days. I am so so so blessed to be here in London, and everyday it hits me how privileged I am and I cannot be more grateful to God for seeing me through, for allowing me to be here and to live and breathe in this city amongst the best group of people I could ask for.
It's hit me a couple of weeks ago that I've been busy..being happy. I remember I was saying a prayer and I was mad at myself for always drifting off to sleep without finishing, after all, conversations with God are very important and personal to me. Then I realised, I drift off to sleep with a smile on my face every night recently because I live each day as it is and in every moment there possibly is, that I go to bed feeling like I've served my purpose for the day and I am ready for rest. While I still make sure I live in gratitude and continue to give thanks for every little thing, I have finally reached a point in my life where I feel really content. It's nothing fancy, I didn't strike the lottery, I didn't get my dream job, I just.....live. I have an amazing group of people in my life. I have a roof over my head in a place I love being in. I have food to eat. I have a lot of fun. I get to do fun things for work. It's a scary thought that for the first time I feel some sort of comfort and happiness, it comes with the fact that I now have something to lose.
Being the last few days of 2015, I've been thinking a lot about this and where to go on from here. I know I should keep doing what I do but sometimes I just can't help worrying that it's all going to go away. I don't want to keep living and then simply forget... start taking it all for granted. My life here, my friends, my family, the work that I am so lucky to be able to do everyday. I can safely say that I am genuinely in a good place and there is nothing more I need at this very moment, this is a first of many firsts. Having something to lose. Embracing the here and the now. I'm kind of lost for words. But I guess maybe it's a good thing. This entire 'epiphany' has made me realised that when you let go of certain expectations and just live each day as it is, step by step, you get so much more and we are able to grab pretty unbelievable opportunities or perspectives from these very moments. This christmas, I celebrated the present and I will continue to do so for last the next few days of the year and this is exactly how I will welcome 2016 into my life. So I just urge anyone, if you're going through uncertainty, embrace it. If life's going good, embrace it. It's all about the present.
So here is my list on how you can be content too:
Practice. Even when the going gets rough, think of every thing you can be grateful for. Survival. Your nose. Food on the table.
Love. Wholeheartedly, genuinely. Keep loving. Breathe love, give out love, and celebrate love. You'll find yourself truly happy.
Embrace the present. If you're going through uncertainty, embrace it. If life's going good, embrace it. It's all about the present. It's about the NOW. Deal with your feelings and embrace every bit of it.
Take it easy. I can't emphasise how important it is that so often, we human beings are the hardest critics on ourselves. If there is anything we should do, take it all step by step. You simply are better at things. You're more alert. Do it at a good pace. And if you're having a hard time, embrace it. Then go on, start your day afresh and come home after you've served your purpose for the day. Rest, and start over. Step by step, day by day. Don't be so hard on you, and put the weight of the whole world on your shoulders.
On a lighter note, I moved to a new place last week, got my room dolled up with my! dream! chair! I've always wanted one of these. Vj and I ran to the flower market over the weekend to buy so much plants for the new place and it was so much fun. Moving has been exhausting but I am so glad my little cozy corner is done. With the chilly and gloomy winters in London, I love that I am able to wake up in a room that feels warm and be reminded of summer. So I still put on my denims and crop tops at home and run around in my strappy heels and have dance-offs while pasta is cooking with my friends. I am wearing the Mia Heel
from RAYE and the Finn Top
from Tularosa courtesy from Revolve
. From the 27th of December (for one day only!) there will be up to 75% off. I absolutely cannot wait to get my hands on some of my favourite brands like For Love and Lemons, Frame Denim and Zimmermann.
Merry Christmas again and thank you for the continuous support from you guys, I am nothing without you!