After a month of intense back to back travel, I'm back in Singapore for a month. The travel bug hit me last week, I found myself mentally and physically exhausted. I'm supposed to be in Jakarta this weekend but I simply couldn't bring myself to make the trip because I just didn't feel well. A lot has happened in the past 2 weeks since being back from Yogyakarta, I found myself stumbling back into my old ways which made me feel very low- struggling with my addiction to alcohol and having to face certain consequences. I have been spending the past week trying my best to get my balance back, to get my head and my heart in the right place but it's been difficult. I don't know why I've chosen to so candidly talk about it here, and on Instagram (stories!) but the things all of you wrote to me to encourage me, to keep going forward, melted my heart.
I remember this day clearly, I had a rough morning and decided to meet my friend, Faiyaz for a couple of hours, drank two glasses of wine and sunk deep into my own pity party. The events leading up to the past two weeks have given me a lot of new perspective into things and though these photos have clearly nothing to do with how I'm feeling or what I am going through emotionally, it's a reminder that we all have good days and bad days. We stumble and we fall, but we only have to pick ourselves back up and go forward. While like many others, giving advice is no problem for me, but applying it to myself is another thing. It may take me longer than most to feel myself again but I am confident I am making slow progress day by day.
And on days like these, I wear my favourite things, just to feel a little better.