Lets stop this game of pretend, please? I don't know how I'm getting so good at it but its tiring me out. Draining everything out from me. How am I able to appear that hey, everything's alright in front of you, and laugh my heart out, smile like I'm so happy when deep inside I'm hurting so much its tearing me apart. I am tired. I need these thoughts to just go away, I hate how they come back in a split second giving me the worse head and heart ache. I hate how I carry on sinking into this hole blacked with lies every single day. God save me.

I want you to be happy. I want you to be okay. Is that too much to ask for? Because it sucks to helplessly keep wondering to yourself.