Maybe this can be something getting used to. Forget about all the "Smile like you mean it" "Its not the end"
So much for wanting it to be okay, and praying for it to be okay, and believing for it to be okay. I've waited long enough and I'm sorry if I seem to be losing my patience but this pain I've held for so long has become so unbearable I'd rather it be physical on myself ten times over. So what do you know?