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I am worried. Worried about too many things my mind can explode right now. And am upset with myself. Lets simply start with.... my exams are in 5 weeks and I haven't bothered to start on anything. I can't seem to make myself sit still at my study table for a couple of hours and STUDY just during this very short period of time. Its stupid especially when I know, I need to or I'm going to die, my future is going to come crashing down on me if I still continue sitting here and shaking my fat legs and when I know, I can be so FREE after that. Freedom and still... sigh. Oh god this is scaring me for fuck's sake. Secondly I don't have any money. Its stupid to be complaining about this but I'm scared. The last thing I ever want once I get hold of a credit card, is to be in a credit card debt. I don't know if I'm fit to call myself a shopaholic because... I don't own any magic cards at the moment, where by in just a little swipe the item is mine, I don't have the funds to be really shop SHOP or else you'd probably see me every weekend in town with tons of paper bags skipping down the street, I mean that. No one would fund me, I've lied, stolen, made up all sorts of bloody excuses, done everything possible to get something I want but there are still things out there I can never see myself ever affording. For instance, a Birkin. And my family doesn't have money. Ok andfor the last time I am not rich!!!!!!1 I know I'm a lucky girl I am I am I am. I'm extremely extremely blessed but I have no money. For myself. I'm just puzzled why everyone thinks I'm rich. My allowance is miserable, enough to eat but not enough to get anything for my wardrobe. I have to sell my stuff which can be heartbreaking because its just hard to part with things like these. I am currently, in a huge debt. I haven't bought anything over the couple of weeks thats mine, without having to borrow/steal. I share tons of stuff. Like clothes with Hosanna for example. So maybe I seem like I'm always wearing something new, and only for once, but ah think again...
Ok moving on! Thridly.... this is even more stupid but I need to say it or I really will explode. I'm worried about my size and weight. I've put on so much weight this past year, my diet has probably doubled or even thripled. The size of my arms have grown by... 40 percent. So have my thighs, and they're all wobbly. I mean wobbly like when you wobble them they wobble -.- Ok wtf am I saying. Hosanna told me the other day I am no longer skinny. I miss being skinny, I just saw some old photos and I miss looking like I was then in terms of size. I know its stupid to worry and complain because I'm not fat. YET. But naturally if you were me, you'd be bonkers like how I am now. My parents used to be really stick thin ugly and now they've become 5 times their size so I'm worried that I can inherit that.....because I don't exercise. And I really eat alot. Liek breakfast alone on a sunday morning, I have prawn mee and nasi lemak. I am so sorry, so so sorry for ranting. If you've gotten here. TQTQTQTQTQTQTQTQ so much for bearing with me. So I shall end this with... does slimming pills work? Or should I get those type of pills which reduces your appetite. And please SUPPORT SELLING POST!


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F21 lace top
Brand new, tagged S.
$37


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F21 Rose Cropped Cardigan
Brand new, direct from site
Pair with the cutest denims!
$37




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Topshop Peterpan Collared Top
Uk 6
$30


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Topshop x-back
Uk 6
$30


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Vintage watches in brown straps
Round/square face
All brand new in working condition
$20

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